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Who’s Under Your OCD?

Sometimes I think OCD is a very clever way of masking what really matters to us and who we really are.
It can be amazing to take the time to listen to the dialogue under the illness. It can be healing.
I hope you like what I wrote about it:

I’m scared to death
that this might be my
last breath
I am utterly and totally
exposed trying to transpose
my fear for faith.
The deconstruction
and gradual reconstruction
of my faith
has left me a waif
I shake like a leaf
on a windless night
clutching to the bough
with all my might
and after 40 long years
and too many tears
I finally know
I finally know
of what I’m afraid.
Myself.
Who I really am
What I really need
That child inside
crying out for my mum
to sooth the aches
and erase the pain
but I will never
ignore her again.
I didn’t give her a voice
nor did anyone else
I guess it’s time
to stand up for myself.
Let’s find out
who Anna really is.
I’m shaking like a leaf.

Anna Killick 20/06/20

By annielightning

I'm a 40-year-old girl with a chronic illness who happens to be an award-winning writer.
I love friends, tea, writing, rain on the roof at night and my Chihuahua, Timmy Schmal.
I often write about my struggles with, health, 'unstuckness', OCD and life - and what I am learning through them. I also write for the media entertainment site www.telltalesonline.com and Uno manazine.
Recently I have started a serialised story in blog form which I hope you enjoy. This harks back to the appearance of Sherlock Holmes in The Strand Magazine over 100 years ago.
I don't mind what your beliefs are is or aren't, I hope you find something to encourage or entertain you.

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